an odd duck

It was the summer of '10 when the gang was rejoicing their victory over the ferocious 1st year(the examinations,other that that the whole year was rather an antonym of ferocious), the new breed of freshmen had arrived soothing the hankering eyes!

enjoying the scenic beauty, we continued to pass skeevy comments among ourselves(as savage as we may seem, we respect the females) and that is what all the young lads do in college years, while everybody was busy my eyes struck on a carelessly walking, goofy figure with earphones stuck into her niggling ears, a cute filly indeed,
though that face passed besides me multiple times in the past few months but i paid no heed, unaware of the fact its going to get me stymied one day.

Yea, i am an idiot when it comes to the notion of feelings, be it romantic or something else but i cannot help it, though i have suffered very serious losses in this area but my suburban brain has not learned a bit from my past mistakes, i don't know what am i leading myself into this time, the thing that has kept bugging me all my life is why cannot we have answers to every question that pops into our mind, because somewhere out, there are answers for sure but not with the people who actually need them,
like in the examination hall the 90%+ guys have the answers but they don't need em as much as the poor guy on 39% and just needs just another answer!! life can be so cruel at times. ;P

my apologies that i deviated from the base topic but i needed to spread a li'l enlightenment :P

i cannot use names and specifications right now as i am myself not sure about how things are going , yea there is a huge disturbance in force but no reciprocity(no s.o.s signal) n without that there isn any surity. actually I am trying to act cool here but the truth is that I am way out of practice(don't take it in a creepy way) what i mean is, it's been a long time me+heart+girl, that was the only way i could think of to explain the preceding statement, sorry i am bad with semantics.
but you can't help it, though you know all the cons but you still want to go deeper and dig up the pros, ah hope !! thou art a heartless bitch! you know what is going to happen and it is going to end just as the other stories but i like to fancy about how beautiful things can be, not just me, we all do and "kaaash" comes into power, taking us to the exotic lands of fantasy!

The thing is that i am knowingly putting myself through this and hereby cannot blame anyone for the misery i am going to witness in the future (here i have surity), because my treasured friends have already warned me about things and have showed me the glimpse of the bigger picture but "dil ki khata bhi hai kya,dillagi ke siwa isne kiya bhi hai kya", cheesy indeed but true ;P

keeping fingers crossed and eyes closed i would continue to walk on the thin line, lets see if it leads me to my destination coz "andhere may maara hua teer 100 me se ek baar to nishaney pe lagat hi hai"

cheerio :)