grrrrrrr :/

i don't know how would i be able to compensate , maybe m having my share of chastisement,
i hav never witnessed so much of emotional turmoil in my life ever, its really difficult,
this notion of love has alwayz baffled me n put me in hell lotta troubles n made me mentally ill at times, there is no actual solution to the equation of love.

there are times when people are so close to you, that you text them bout your going too poop n stuff bt suddenly some random person a.k.a boyfrn/girlfrn comes and throws u out of your place from your friends heart but the person never retaliates coz he/she are blinded by this so called love. along comes the natural feelings of hatred, jealousy n anguish. you feel kinda betrayed but you cannot help it!

but it is all natural and it had to happen one day, you have come to the world to be with just one person but does that mean , you can thrash a person whenever u want.
no, this kind of a behaviour would not be tolerated n why should it be, the person you are playing with is also real and plays his role of importance in this world!!
so be it what you are and i'll be what i'll have to and would not be answerable to anyone, i am not here to be treated like some piece of shit!!
no more crying for anyone, aaj se, don't screw up your peace of mind for someone who isn't bothered and give your life to someone who actually care about you,
be with them coz you are not hte one who is breakin promises, n you are not the bad friend!

P.S- this note is not for any specific person, these are just random thoughts,

A cold nyt

boht thandi lagri boss!!! with the mercury falling there isn't nothing much left out there to do,
i just found an intresting relation between temperature n love ( based on personal experiences)
love is inversely proportional to temperature!!
an example supportin my theory is- you n your bandi/banda would prefer spending more time in the blanket doing your snoogums-woogums during winters rather than going out n play!!
please don't judge me by this, m nt a creep!! :P
i just think "love" is something that has no actual definition, i hav never been able to figure out what that word actually means, though i have misused it quite a many times n had to regret later!!
affection,lust,etc etc even anger sometimes work as sub-ordinates for the L-word!!!
take me 4 example- i like a bandi (presently), a very good friend, the problem isn't bou letting out the feelings n spilling the beans, its bout being sure n understanding what you actually feel for the other person, love n maths are the two things which i am failing in since puberty :P
forget bout love, m still trying to figure out infactuation, soo far i am just able to use the word "like", exuding total confidence!!
Had the almighty blessed my suburban brains with enough intellect, i wouldn't have been strugglin now!! this metropolitan idea of "love" baffles me all the time!
actually the whole idea of "love" baffles me!!
jus caring boout a person isn't love for sure, this quest will be on till there's an answer n "wo to khudaa hi de sakte hai" !!! ;)