ye qaaaaaa?? :O

omg! omg! i never realized that its been almost an year that i thot seriously about being with a girl, is it because i never met the right person in that period or was it not the right time! but there's always a fear a fear of past events n that ghost haunts me still!! " par risk to life me lena hi padta hai ghalib" :P

derz this girl n she is in my mind 4 a while now n along she brings a cyclone of thougts
but the real deal is i don't know what she feels, i haven't got that "s.o.s signal of love" yet
sometimes i just think m , am i just makig an ass of myself by having this hopeless infactuation
n in the end i'll be ending up with a girlfriend who would be purely imaginary!!!

the other thing keeping me away from this enterprise is the moolah which i do not posses in enough quantity,
they say love is blind but its got an intestine and has to be fed :P
n money is something which is an indelible part of the script of love in today's world.
"money talks , bullshit walks".
maybe i am just in love with the idea of being in love with such a girl who might be outta mah reach!!
that is another noticable aspect of human nature, we adore things which are beyond our reach or stature!
n trust me nowadays money trumps every damn quality you possess, strange and bitter but quite true!

a lil glum creeps in after such disturbin thoughts but we have to live in our real world and survive here, cheeerio!!

Freakkin crazy :P

This one's for daddy's li'l gal :P

On a midsummer night, i was flying "high"(samaj jaao :P) , but i sharply remember i saw you, n da very next second, i was clicking on "add as a friend" :P
I can hardly remember the after events but the very next day you were in my list as my 120Th friend.

For me, you make the phrase come alive "looks can be deceiving", and certainly yours are, and that concludes u ain't intellectual at all :P(jk)

i don have to push my train of thought while conversing with you, and an effortless chat is one thing that cements a bond of friendship!

a major part of you is still a mystery but i like to unfold things myself in a gradual process, like one receives a special gift and removes even the wrapping paper with so much care! i so do wanna unveil but the barrier is time n with it passing by i guess it will all be fine.


i don't wan't things to change between us but change is something we can't control, all we can do is to hope when it happens, it brings us good n betterment in the relation we share!! i love when u say "freakin crazzzy", let it keep coming at regular intervals, :)
n your eyes speak volumes, keep dazzlin the world, lv ya, teqr!!

to Yashasvi

Lost in time :/

Twas a chilly night in '07, n indulged in daydreaming as always, i was trying 2 kill time.

suddenly the phone buzzes n it was your name flashin on the screen, an event of no surprise as at midnight talkin 2 you was kinda daily routine.

"Charlsy! you would neva leave me alone naa??" u said 2 me in a breaking voice, i knew the reason of that crack in your voice, n with a thousand promises in my mind i jus said "Always!".

Two winters have passed since then n communicating with you seems like a task so hard.

They say change is a phenomenon that has to occur but i do not posses the strength to face such as these.

A chirpy,bubbly young girl is the image i still have in my mind, but i knew someday she has to grow up n i wished so would our friendship but the Lord never gives you more than you can handle.

I am not able 2 make out what has just happened, a working agent on this consequence is distance but is it just a sole reason for this situation??

A whirpool of of so many thoughts from where i am helplessly trying 2 swim out 2 the shore of solution knowing that there is a little hope for me but that is the beauty of human nature, a lil hope is all one needs 2 keep going on!

No matter what future has in store for us, i av those b'ful memories of ours and i hope we would maintain our bond of friendship an relive those moments together and this hope gives me the strength 2 carry on n never give up on you.

---------always there with you Abhu!