insomnia creeping in :/

i hate being insomniac. i guess i hav spent enough sleepless nights in the past! why am i the one who is to suffer every time, why isn the almighty bestowing me wid one person who is able to create an equivalence with me rather than disruptin my peace of mind!! I don't deserve it at all(this treatment) n everybody is aware of that!
i needed u at the stroke of midnight but u wer fast asleep ignoring my sleep deprived eyes, weren't u able 2 figure out before dragging me into this that u weren't ready!!
i feel so sorry for my eyes coz they are the ones who are suffering, sometimes red, sometimes wet and sometimes just wandering aimlessly!
i need u to talk with me n console me now but u made false promises, u aint here bt u said u would be wen m in need!!
but u dont expect me to do the same, i would always liv up to the promises i made, no matter what happens! but they say promises are meant to be broken, Mayb m jus an another exception!


Dear Lord,
why do you do this to me most of the time?? mom says m your favourite but please don't play with me so much otherwise i'll break! :(
you to know every thing, i hate these things rollin down my cheeks, they always make me feel so miserable n weak! please keep em away from me, Neither am i ready for so many unexpected gifts that u alwyas give me n i jus love em n loose em because of my carelessness or break their hearts. . . . . .oh my apologies!! i meant parts!!
i thank you for all your graces n the strength you will be giving me to face this life, n i thank you for sending dat "big eyed gal", she has got beautiful eyes!!!
i know u will pull me out of this but i can't wait for yet another year!!!
Yours faithfully
Sleepless Child